5th Week

Yesterday we entered our 5th week of pregnancy or about 244 days to go according to my pregnancy calculator.  During this week, our Eskimos-to-be are about the size of a sesame see and they look more like a tiny tadpole than a human.  It is made up in three layers which will later transform into vital parts and organs of a human being.

Still, everything can happen to these tiny creatures that are occupying me at the moment.  I don't want to think about it but I cannot exclude all the dangers that might happen to it.  The first trimester is said to be the most crucial phase in an embryo's life.

My fiance's mom grilled some bbq meat for dinner yesterday including salmon and she even baked fried rice for me (she called and asked me how to do it).  I really appreciate and I am very grateful for the thoughtful gestures and attentiveness.  If there is one thing I can exclude that might harm our little angels that would be toxoplamosis.

Still, last night I dreamt I miscarried the babies--horrible!  I went to the livingroom, took a HPT and tested myself.  It tested positive so I was more than relieved.  But now while I am engorged with my studying, I feel some pulsating sensation on my right lower abdomen and a cramp feeling which I had last week even when I am just passively sitting on our office chair.  I am afraid if something has happened to the uterine lining or to our little Eskimos.  I am petrified of the thought that I will miscarry them!  That and my fiance dreamt of something similar last night as well.